tale to tale

Control or desire,
Which invites me the most?
I am a being of desire, flesh swollen
And sweet-toothed.

Yet control is what I aspire to wear,
Like a bulletproof vest in the fields of temptation.
Desire holds me more as it seeks Control,
Whilst Control works to achieve my desires.

I am in the chaos of both,
Caught in the crossfire
Of want and am,
And I become more whole in times of peace.